Youth

Youth

                                                 by Sameul Ullman

Youth is not a time of life; it is a state of mind; it is not a matter of rosy cheeks, red lips and supple knees; it is a matter of the will, a quality of the imagination, a vigor of the emotions; it is the freshness of the deep springs of life.

   Youth means a temperamental predominance of courage over timidity of the appetite, for adventure over the love of ease.  This often exists in a man of sixty more than a body of twenty.  Nobody grows old merely by a number of years.  We grow old by deserting our ideals.

   Years may wrinkle the skin, but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul.  Worry, fear, self-distrust bows the heart and turns the spirit back to dust.

   Whether sixty or sixteen, there is in every human being's heart the lure of wonder, the unfailing child-like appetite of what's next, and the joy of the game of living.  In the center of your heart and my heart there is a wireless station; so long as it receives messages of beauty, hope, cheer, courage and power from men and from the Infinite, so long are you young.

   When the aerials are down, and your spirit is covered with snows of cynicism and the ice of pessimism, then you are grown old, even at twenty, but as long as your aerials are up, to catch the waves of optimism, there is hope you may die young at eighty.

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Today,I read this beautiful prose telling all out that I want to say about youth and the way I decide to live my whole life.

With passion and hard-working,I believe I can finally achieve my goal!

Friday now,coming two days' rest...

Don't know why.When there comes the Friday,I always feel restless.

I heard of  Money Syndrome that meant employees felt lack of spirits to their work after coming from holidays,but I don't know why I will feel the same while there is some terrible tasks awaiting.

Online alone and doing nothing.

Maybe all I need is some one to kindle my passion flame...

Maybe myself?

To MamaYoung1

Well,very nice you are not bored with me but instead give me some kind of supports...Just because of this I'd like to say Thank You!

Maybe it's my time makes me feel confused and don't know how to decide and act.I'm now a passionate young guy,too energetic to do this so many things.

I think terribly a lot about so many things regarding philosophy,economics,love,friendship,career and self-developpment,etc.And right because of my loose control of my moods,sometimes I feel really sad about the conditions.

Now I'm a sophomore majoring in Electrical Engineering.I just somewhat like this.But the matter is that I've got so many interests that I nearly don't know how to choose,for I know I don't want to be an electrical engineer for my whole life.At the other hand,since I met my delicate first love in my Grade 3(maybe I will explain sth,Grade 3 in China is the last year in high school equivalent to Class 12 in US,maybe,and facing the examination of entering a college...So the study is quite tough.)which makes me failed in my National College Entrance Examination and then came to this poor university,my present university.So,I want to attend a best university in our country(maybe if I got enough ability I can attend one of your universities like Harvard,Yale and MIT,etc.Ha...)Also I wanna change my major to Economics,for I feel this major can make money more faster...and also somewhat my interest...

You know,under this economic bloom and expansion of higher education,our undergraduates are feeling sourful to face a fact that maybe you can't find a job to support you if you come from a just-so-so university.So everybody(and also me) wants to exert all their powers to attend a better university to get a higher degree...I,believing myself a talented guy,also want to attend the best university,Beijing University,to get what I want...

So,there is a contradiction...I don't know how to keep balance between Economics and Electrical Engineering...both are time cosumptive majors...I recently find I'm with a characteristic--I can do two more things together.Whenever I distribute my engergy in different parts,my efficiency lowered down.And if I just plunged into a fixed target,I can do it really perfect...and that saves most of my time...

Economics is not an easy thing....it requires Mathematics,fast reading ability,anlytical thinking,quick understanding of a scheme...etc...All this makes me can't bear extra energy to garantee my college progress,and still there is tons of wasting-time things I have to do to earn the so-called credits to get a undergraduate diploma....What's so boring a thing !!!

......

I'm now still wandering and wandering...

Confusions

I know,as a sophomore,I should not be this confused about my future.I'd better know my purposes/targets,know what I am doing for,and know how to live in a better way...But I am really sad  that I am now not like this.

I nearly can't get any advances now...I just kinda like my major and besides of it I am with tons of things I want to do along my whole life.But at present,loafing my time on useless classes that I have to be present.

And I also can't keep peace.I always wander inside and always feel empty...

I know maybe I need some friends...but in fact I don't know how to open my mouth to speak out something to let others know you and then they could become my friends.

I know maybe I need some instructions...but in fact I don't know I can believe who except me myself if someone's words doesn't hit me...

I know maybe I need a true love to support from inside my heart...but in fact I just right now lose one.She said let us be good friends, and nothing else I can say afterwards.

So,I am now still wasting my precious time on the Internet,blogging this,hoping for somebody's help...

Who Can Help Me

Well,Who can tell me where can I download some mp3s for free?

I'm a newbie with this..